Hey Y'all

Damn!

It's been a hard year.

For those out of the loop, I met the most amazing person, fell head over heels giddily in love, then lost him.

I think I've written about that before, but can't face reading it yet.

ANYWHO, it changes a person.

More than I would have imagined.

It affects you mentally, which affects you physically. There is trauma involved.

Then there is the challenge / trauma of dealing with the other people who have loved your loved one, and being pushed aside because you were only new in his life.

I understand that - I do. It doesn't make it easier.

I'm blessed that his sister and mother do understand how much I loved him, and care for me for that.

But, damn, I miss that brilliant boy.